Wednesday, March 21, 2007

Grumble Grumble Grumble... oooo a penny.

You ever have one of those days where you probably would have had a better day if you stayed in bed?

That’s my day today. I suppose it was a bit self imposed but I’m not going to grouse about it. I’m trying to be optimist and say, “Days like these make me appreciate the better ones.” It’s easy to think that but much easier to walk around saying, “I hate people.”

Today, I hate people. No one in particular. Ok, maybe myself. Today, I tried to renew my passport. I know. I know. But Pantrygirl, don’t you usually have a calendar of to dos to avoid any mad rushing before items expire? Yes, sue me. I updated my husbands but forgot about mine.

Anyway, there is a slim to none chance I’ll be going to the UK with my husband for business and of course my passport is expired. Without a confirmed flight date, I can’t go to a passport agency to renew. So I’m left with sending the passport via mail and asking for expedited process. Of course, I didn’t know this. When I went to the web site, it said I could go to a main post office and handle the paperwork.

The web site is wrong. The main post office only handles new passport applications not renewals. So if you live in Manhattan, don’t do what I did and waste and entire morning getting your passport stuff ready to find out you have to mail it.

I was about to give up and pray that the mail would make it in time to renew my passport ASAP when my brother told me that if I can get documentation that I have a trip within 10 days, I could go personally to get my passport and it would be ready within 7 days.

I’m gambling with this as I always like to be prepared but I’m going to have to wait until the possible trip is finalized, take a day off of work and spend another day in the 7th ring of bureaucratic hell.

I’m bringing everything short of a pint of blood in the hopes I have everything they need to expedite the request.

From that run around, I jetted to my office for meetings and now is the first time I could sit and relax. Then I received disturbing news about the executive leadership. Long story short, I’m really beginning to feel nervous. I usually try to keep myself away from the political doings of the workplace but I find that it’s becoming harder and harder. I’m not just talking about my workplace but everywhere in general.

Even at my church. Before I can present anything to the bishop, I have to get enough backing for my proposal and I have to do so as to not step on anyone’s toes.

Last night I went to the Parish Mission. The topic was family and the changing definition of family. I felt a bit out of place as I do not have children yet but it was interesting to see how quickly people can lean towards the positive or negative aspects of family. One question in particular asked to list positive aspects of the changing definition of family. One woman was adamant that there were not good things.

I have always called myself a pessimistic optimist. For the most part, I believe is the human spirit and feel anything can be accomplished with the motivation and dedication is there. However, as a project manager and former girl scout, it’s extremely important for me to be prepared for the worst.

This woman though really blew my mind. I love my family very much and yes my mom and I aren’t Joan and Melissa Rivers but when it comes down to it, we’re there for each other. Yes, there have been negatives but I’d like to say when I think of my family, more positives than negatives are there.

Even with my in-laws, I feel that for the most part, we do care for each other and probably are better off because of our relationship.

She mentioned how hard her life was and I could never understand her experiences but I wanted to say to her, your trials made you and your daughter what you are today, a stronger, more self sufficient person who can pass on these traits to others.

I suppose the one thing I learned from last evening’s discussion was that I really am an optimist. Yes, I’m cynical. Yes, I’m bitter and can be quite sarcastic but I’m also very hopeful.

There is too much negative in the world and I don’t need to add to it. Yes, I hate people today but tomorrow I’ll be back to my smiling at the sky self.