Thursday, August 27, 2015

In all things, I am blank, so very blank.

I’ve spent the today and most of yesterday in a haze.
I don’t know how to get out of it. 
I feel like a doll with vacant eyes.
I know it shows.
I don’t try to pretend.

Will I be like this forever?
Can I try to pretend in front of my children?

I don’t have a solution.
I don’t even want to think of a solution.
I just want to be.
I don’t want to think.
I don’t want to try.

I just want to be.

and this scares me.

My passion……… where are you?