I’ve spent the today and most of yesterday in a haze.
I don’t know how to get out of it.
I feel like a doll with vacant eyes.
I know it shows.
I don’t try to pretend.
Will I be like this forever?
Can I try to pretend in front of my children?
I don’t have a solution.
I don’t even want to think of a solution.
I just want to be.
I don’t want to think.
I don’t want to try.
I just want to be.
and this scares me.
My passion……… where are you?