I know God gives us talents and we need to use those talents to help others. I know God is asking me to help my loved one. I sometimes feel it is hard though especially when I feel as if because it's known I'll be the rock one feels they can do what I deem very irresponsible things for a grown person and role model.
I plan. I organize. I maintain. That doesn't mean you don't have to put any effort. Try.
Just try.