When we go away it's usually a much needed event.
But for this mom going away means that I'm responsible for planning, packing, figuring what to do, cooking, coordinating the day and swimming.
So in short a getaway but not so much a relaxing one for mom. I will say it's relaxing but in a different way. It's nice to see the kids have fun and enjoy. If it wasn't why would I keep doing it.
Sadly it feels many times that is all on my shoulders. A lot of times i wish I wasn't the one always handling things.
Even directions and at times driving are also on my to dos. Many times. DH says he's tired or he's not in a state to drive.
At first I wondered if I should be upset about the state he's in but I'm not wondering if it's better for him to be in that state than not.
He's very angry and grumpy when he's not. He says it's his stomach or something is on his mind. It's as if he doesn't want to be here and sadly the family probably would've happier if he wasn't if he continued in his grumpy mood.
We want him near us. It's not that we don't want him near us. We just want him to not be the Debbie downer of the group.
