I am not a social butterfly. I'll be the first to say that I don't hate people, I just tend to be by myself. I'm not to the point where I want to be completely alone with my computer but I do find social situations stressful and not as comfortable as most folks.
I suppose that's why I'm good at what I do. I deal with logic and data and workflow builds can be explained via logic.
I know I get this from my dad. Don't get me wrong. I'd like to be social. When I find a group of folks I'm comfortable with, I am very open but it takes time. What I don't like and it's a personal innate thing is when people try really hard to be my friend. I don't know what it is about it. I just find it annoying and unfortunately, first impressions generally stick with me.
So I know being a parent to TG and ToF will be personal challenge. I know I need to add the social network of parents of my kid's friends. I'm trying. It's not intuitive for me. DH thinks I'm just being a PIA. "She clearly wants to be your friend. Why can't you throw her a bone." "I don't need a best bud. I need someone who isn's trying." "Give her a break."
I'm trying. I know I can try harder.
I just don't have logical time for it.
And this may be shocking to some but I really am bad with small chit chat. I find it a waste of my time. I'd much rather prefer to stand in the elevator and wait for my floor than to sit and try to talk about the weather. Now yes, I do have a tendency to start the damn conversations with a hello and a hi. {Can someone tell me what is up with that? Am I a glutton for punishment?}
I think that's why DH thinks it's odd that I have to work at socializing.
I know I have some personal childhood stuff to reckon with but that's fine. I admit that. I just don't know why I find it totally comfortable talking to someone if I initiate it but if someone tries to initiate it I get all New York 'what's the motive' on people.
