Friday, August 13, 2010

I wanna hold your hand

TG has started to want and desire to hold my hand. Having your child's tiny warm hand enclosed around yours is one of the best feelings in the whole world.
In the past she wanted to be free and explore. She also needed her hands to maneuver and brace for falls.
Now she reaches out to me to hold her hand every now and then.
She also knows that she must hold our hand when crossing the street or a parking lot.
With this new found bond I've also noticed she is more aware of my departures and not very keen on them.
In the past she happily saw me off and kissed me and hugged me. She would even instruct dh to kiss and hug me.
For the past two days she's been a wet sobbing mess. Big bright glistening eyes stare back at me like a sad puppy dog.
You'd think I feel bad. I do but not that much. 1. She's with DH. 2. I need the break.
I admit I need something outside of mommyhood and wifeydom. I love both roles. I just need more.