Thursday, May 06, 2010

Please let this be finite.

I'm a bit annoyed. I just found out my mother has an inclination towards assuming that any decisions made that are not along her lines of comfort come from me. This also comes to play when it's something I'm an attendee and not planner.
This ticks me off. Why does she assume that if it's something she's not happy with or doesn't agree with, I'm involved?
Man this has been eating me for days now. It's annoying me beyond annoying.
It's also bringing up how much I hate her backhanded comments to me.
I know that she was raised with the belief that displaying love is informing the one you love how they can improve themselves. Sure an A if great but you A+ would be better.
It's like that with everything. Your cake is good but it could be better. Your dress is nice but it could be better.
She means well but it still is biting so much so that that is the heart of why I don't have a close relationship with my mother. I refrain from telling her everything because I always feel like it's never good enough for her or if she doesn't understand, she gets defensive and tries to make it sound insignificant.
I know I should be the better person and I try but it's very hard.
I know this is a typical issue between mother and child, especially daughter.
I don't want my relationship with my daughter to be the same. I hope and pray it's not.
Perpetuation would be horrible. I only hope that the learned knowledge and understanding of why will be the growth catalyst.