Wednesday, May 05, 2010

The hamster in the wheel is tired.

Sometimes you have one of those days where you wake up and am covered in a haze of blue.
Today was that kind of day for me.
I didn't want to get up. I didn't want to be a grown up. I didn't want to do anything but I'm a parent now and that kind of kicks you into gear regardless of whatever you're feeling. Breakfast needs to be made. Diapers need to be changed. Teeth need to be brushed.
A child kicks you into gear. You don't want your child to succumb to the general blues that everyone gets. As an example to my child, I need to pick myself up and hope the sunshine of spring rejuvenates me.
I made it into the office and dug myself into my work and it was not cathartic but it did pick up my spirits.
I can't explain why and how but focusing on my work really helped me feel better and at the end of the day, my outlook seemed to be brighter.