Monday, July 06, 2009

Love is Impossible

I've been sitting on this one for awhile partly because I'm exhausted and tired and partly because I really wanted to reflect on how far we've come.

Love is impossible but anything is possible through God. The line that struck me the most is this, "love that is able to withstand every pressure is out of your reach, as long as you're only looking withint yourself to find it."

If there is any situation where pressure is involved, it's the first year of parenthood and I honestly think doing the dare has helped me become stronger and my yoke lighter.

I know that love is from God. I look at my daughter and realize love is the greatest gift to receive and God gives it to us freely.

I recently told someone very dear to me that we do the things we do because of love not for accolades and when we grow tired and begin to compare we must remember we do it because we love.

Every night, as I nurse my child to sleep, I say our prayers and I always remind her that her mom, her dad and God love her.

This exercise reminds me of what I try to instill in her, love is possible because of God.

So the exercise asked, "Were there some things that felt impossible throughout the first half of this dare?" Yes and I'm sure there will be more.

There were some days where I questioned everything. I think it's human and natural. We just need to take a step back and see the bigger picture or trust in the bigger picture.

How do I feel? I feel like it's been a slow go for me but I'm happy to be doing this dare and my relationship is better because of it. Heck, I'm better for this. This dare isn't just about my relationship with my spouse but my own relationship with self and God.