Monday, January 19, 2009

Slowly but surely mom and baby are growing stronger.

BG is 6 months, 1 week and 5 days old.
So BG finished her 5 days eating avocado. The first day was a bit stressful for me but she’s been a true champ eating 1 ounce at each sitting. I’m so proud of her. I’m also proud of my letting go. It has been no secret that I’m reluctant to introduce the solids. I remind myself that her eating solids isn’t a farewell to breastfeeding. It’s been a private struggle but everyday I see my little girl smile while she eats, I’m happy. BG has now moved onto sweet potatoes. I plan to make pears and squash next.
It hasn’t been easy as I get flack for the foods I choose to start her off with. Sometimes it’s said in a joshing way but when you hear almost every day that a certain food is disgusting it only makes me think of the trials I will face when she truly understands what is being said in front of her. It makes me angry and hurt. I work hard researching what foods to start with. I try very hard to overcome my irrational fears to feed her solids every day. I work hard to come home on time and feed her at a decent hour. I don’t need the extra hurdle to jump over.
Anyway, letting go of my worries about her starting solids is a big accomplishment for me. I’m very proud of myself and it’s one of those things that I can’t share with everyone. Some folks think it’s black and white but it’s not. So here I am announcing how happy I am that I jumped this hurdle. I’m sure I’ll have more hurdles regarding solids but I’ll jump them one at a time and one my own.