Thursday, August 14, 2008

If i could...

1 Month and 1 Week

Baby Blues by Rick Kirkman & Jerry Scott

If I was financial well off, I’d love to stay home and watch my daughter grow. Unfortunately, situations have led me to have to go back to work. Don’t get me wrong, I like my job and the people I work with. I genuinely want to help them and feel great when I can. It’s not like I begrudgingly get out of bed to go to do something I reluctantly am forced to do.

It just makes me wonder how other folks are able to have multiple children and stay at home. I have an acquaintance that has 3 children and she stays at home. How is that possible on a normal person’s income?

I know I have a few strikes against me here. I live in NYC. This isn’t the most economical place to raise a child. My husband’s career requires us to be in a major metropolitan area so it’s not like I can move to a locale that has a better cost of living.

My husband is a technogeek and has more toys than a sane person should have. I like cooking and stock my pantry full of goodies. I like my occasional mani/pedis and spa treatments.

Seriously, did I miss the course on how to live on one income and raise a family?

I suppose because I’m so concerned about finances, I’m also very sad to see that I need to go back to work and miss the small things with my daughter. Perhaps, I will not be able to afford to have more children. I don’t want to miss out on anything.

If anyone knows the secret to financial stability allowing for stay at home parentdom, please let me know. Right now, I feel like I want my cake and eat it too except it really shouldn’t feel like that. It should just be.

Baby Lessons:
Eating schedule remains the same every 2/3 hours.
Forget what the doctor said. Until my daughter is ready to eat every 3-4 hours consistently, I can’t hold her off. She becomes too fussy and as the day drags on, it just gets worse. If she’s hungry after 2 hours, I am going to feed her.

Today’s dining schedule so far: 12:30am, 4:45am, 7:45am, 10am, 12pm…
Today’s pumping schedule: 1am, 4am, 7am, 11am, 2:45pm

BG makes a lot of noises while she...
sleeps, eats, etc...
They are a mixtures of groans and exasperations.
She also likes to sleep with her arms out of her swaddle and over her head. Her dad seems to prefer the over the head arm thing too.