Baby Blues by Rick Kirkman & Jerry Scott
I’m really feeling like a watched pot now.
I’m post due and the phone doesn’t stop ringing. The text messages don’t stop. The emails don’t stop arriving.
I know people mean well. I know friends and family are anxious but this is getting to be stressful for the mommy. DH is sort of the same as well. Sweetly he won’t let me do laundry, he won’t let me go household shopping. He just wants me to lie and bed and wait.
I’m so antsy now I can’t.
A friend invited us to her annual Fourth of July barbecue. It’s an hour and half away from our house. I told her we’d see but I know DH thinks it’s unwise. I just don’t like sitting around waiting.
I woke up at 7am this morning excited about the day. It’s now 1:30pm and I feel anxious, angry, upset, guilty and antsy.
Maybe a movie would be nice. I won’t be moving around that much, I’ll be indoors and DH won’t get upset at me wobbling down aisles at Target. Still, at the rate I’m moving and with the list of errands my husband wants to do, I doubt it will ever happen.
DH wants me to drop off donations to Goodwill, go to the gym, go to the camera store, do the household shopping and then go to the movies. Sorry, I can’t wait for that.
I may search for a nail salon, get a manicure and pedicure and go to the Yankee Store. I’m not going to the movies at 6pm.
Have we forgotten how to be together as adults without errands? Good grief. It’s a holiday and I feel like I can’t just go relax with my husband.
I know I’m emotional. I know this will pass. For all I know this may be a sign of labor, being antsy. Who knows. All I know is I can either sleep the day away or I can go out and do something, anything that doesn’t involve people staring at me waiting for me to pop.
Baby girl, if you ever decide to be a mommy and become pregnant, I hope I don’t cause you undue stress and anxiety by watching you. If I do, throw this in my face. It’s not a good feeling and I apologize in advance if it happens to you.
I hope everyone else is having a pleasant and relaxing Fourth of July. If you are by the pool, dip your toes in the water for me.
