Saturday, June 07, 2008

High Anxiety... (Key Change!)


I’ve been having crazy dreams throughout this pregnancy. Many were short and some just didn’t warrant documentation. My latest dreams deal with more anxieties. Anxieties that I may not be able to give my child the love and care she needs. I know it’s all my anxieties of being a mom creeping through. I know that all I can do is pray and do what I believe is best. It just remember how detached I felt and I didn’t think that was right.

Anyway, along with the anxieties of impending motherhood, I also noticed I dropped a bit. Yes indeed, Miss Bean is preparing to make her debut. Miss Bean, if possible, please hold out 4 more weeks. Mom and dad are doing the last minute preparations. I still need to wash your clothes and bedding. I still have not packed my hospital bag. Yes, I know denial is holding me back. So if at all possible, make use of the lovely sublet for just awhile longer.

Did I mention that the humidity is awful. It’s much more comfortable where you are right now, I’m sure.