Tuesday, January 08, 2008

You thought telling your parents was nerve racking

I’m very nervous.

I scheduled a meeting with my director today to inform him of the good news. I’ve never had to tell someone I needed leave before so this is a bit scary.

I’m prepared my written proposal for leave and return to work and have had a friend/mentor review it. I’ve calculated additional time just in case because I heard it’s better to ask for more than less. I’ve practiced (sort of) what I’m going to say. I’m still petrified.

Does everyone feel this way?
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My director’s assistant called this morning to cancel my meeting. I shocked her with my insistent request for a meeting with him today before he leaves for a business trip. With the help of a friend I calmed down and was able to get a meeting with him.
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He’s running late. Oh, cruel ……..
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He’s back.
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My knees were shaking but I did it. I told them that I found a way to have staff cut from the same cloth as myself but they’d have to wait a few months for incubation and 20+ years to fully ripen. They seemed happy. I have to negotiate some points with them but we’ll see what they put on the table.
I feel relieved it’s out but also nervous about negotiations but I suppose that’s normal. I couldn’t do this without helpful advice from friends and mentors. Women really do help women which is another reason I believe men could never be pregnant. There was a reason for God’s plan.